Uhmmm so yeah, hey everyone!
I'm bored and I need arts in my life.




So I want to draw more and take pictures.
So.


So....
yeah.

Life? Okay so in my life things have happened.
I cut my hair. It's a bob with a mullet, they're like best friends so I let them do it on my head. So then I got addicted to cigarettes, which I'm sure I could stop at any time but really don't feel like. I am in love with my best friend Jon, but it's not like a secret or something, it's mutual. We just don't fuck or anything. so he went to an MRI when he was stoned and it came up as him being depressed, so now he is falsely perscribed prozac and it's making him into a self destrctive sad sad. And it makes me sad. He cut himself and I wanted to strangle him. He said it was because he missed me. Then he tried to drown himself in his pool, and didn't even tell me until like yesterday. I miss him too though.

I drink and do drugs far too often. But I don't care, there's really no point in self control, when in the end you'll be dead anyway. So whatever. I like feeling different, it gives me thrills. I don't take my life forgranted though, I really do value myself and my life, but I'm not stupid enough to think that casually popping a pill or taking a shot will kill me or fuck me over for life. I'm too numb to care about being scared about shit.


Whoah okay I didn't mean to make this journal entry depressing. I'm happy okay ;D

Do drugs.